It's embarrassing. to get to it. To where your answers are-- all of your thoughts are just your pessimistic imaginational bullshit excuses for being lazy. The pursuit of happiness becomes a forceful chase and you start to feel disgusting because some fool inside of you feeds you bullshit-and baby, you are what you eat. that chase sinks in like a habit and you're fucked. you just gouged out your eyes, so now youre blind. Good luck with thinking clearly now. And then...still, you go on to cry one last time about how you want to crawl under a rock. coward. But grow a back bone and be a woman for christ sakes-- Pick up your dignity that you've been chiseling away at, and back there--you dropped your grace when someone tossed you a cheap idea. --dedicate yourself to this: Never give yourself up for your elaborate dreams.